Writer's Block

So I had a big chat with Cate last night and she essentially told me it was bullshit I wasn't blogging every day any more.

She's right, of course, or I wouldn't be writing this blog.

The problem is I have complete writers block.

Part of it is that I can't write what I want to write. Really, I barely even know what I want to talk about half the time - my head is a complete and utter mess right now.

I'm frantically looking for a new job, dealing with a less-than-ideal flatting situation where one flatmate refuses to pay rent, another is doing some very odd things and both of them are stealing pretty much everything I own out of the fridge and cupboard with little regard to the fact that they didn't buy it, I have my own personal issues and there are problems with a couple of relationships where I'm tossing up if it's even worth keeping them going.

There are money issues (but there always are, for everyone) and planning issues and when it comes right down to it, I have way too many things on my mind to be able to sit down and write a blog every single day.

But the truth is, I do sit down to write a blog every day. This blog is littered with half-started drafts. Two lines where I've tried to say something and just completely and utterly failed.

I've decided that the blank posts I haven't filled are going to remain blank. Let's just call it the part of the project where my mojo completely left me and I failed. Sometimes people do fail right? That said, it all comes down to handle the failure. The way I see it, there are three options here -

1. I could decide that this is it. After 2 and a half years of this project, at over half way, I am going to give up and stop.
2. I could frantically try to catch up on the posts I have missed, try to fill in the blanks, spam everybody's RSS readers and write a whole lot of bad posts about stupid things.
3. I could accept I fell off the wagon, that I'm not in the best place and that I need to just get back on. Stop looking back at what I haven't done, and start looking forward to what I can do.

I choose number three.

In my discussion with Cate she also suggested that if I can't blog, to post three things - the best thing about today, the worst thing about today and a statement.

So that's what I'm going to do. God knows how long this block is going to go on for, but from now on there will at least be that posted here, every day.